Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I am trying to do my part to protect the Earth; I use energy efficient bulbs and appliances, I try to make sure lights are turned off when I'm not in rooms, my husband and I carpool, and I plant trees in my yard. However, my favorite way to show my appreciation for this gift God has given is to photograph the Earth's beauty. What an amazing and beautiful creation this world is!
Friday, April 17, 2009
The same week I discovered I was pregnant, a co-worker/friend also discovered she was pregnant. We were excited that we would share this experience together. Two weeks later while at work I had a weird feeling that something wasn't right, it felt as though maybe I was starting my period, but I knew that couldn't be right. I went to the bathroom and I WAS bleeding. My husband and I worked together and I went to him in hysterics. After several hours in an emergency room all they could tell me was that I was "probably" going to miscarry and I would have to come back for another blood test the next day. I was at home alone when I got the call confirming what I already knew in my heart. My baby was gone. I have never hurt so badly. I had barely gotten used to the idea that I was pregnant and it was over already.
My husband was sad that the baby was gone, but I don't think he has ever truly understood the depth of the pain the loss caused me. It wounded me down to my very soul. My co-worker/friend had a wonderful pregnancy. No problems. She had a beautiful baby girl the same week I also should have been delivering my child. I don't think anyone ever understood how painful it was to watch her get everything I dreamed about. It's been almost 9 years now, but the pain is still so raw. I was happy for her, but her happiness reminded me that I should be experiencing the same joy. It was like a slap in the face.
About a year later I discovered that I have polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). It causes fertility issues. I have never been able to get pregnant again. I may never get pregnant again. And the pain is always with me.
I never held my child. I never even saw my child. I just knew that for a brief time it was there within me. And then it wasn't. My dream was gone. But my sorrow from the loss of my dream is real, and still just as intense nine years later.
In 2003 my sister Wendy gave birth to a daughter. Alexis was born 16-weeks premature and she only lived for three days. After Alexis, Wendy had another miscarriage. She was finally able to carry a son, Connor (4), and a daughter, Raelee (9 months), to full-term. Because of the loss she (and our family) suffered, Wendy has never taken one moment for granted with her children. She knows how lucky she is to have them and that the death of her daughter will never leave any of us (along with her two miscarriages).
It has also reminded me that the pain never goes away, it is still there, but we can still have joy in our lives. Maybe one day I will know the joy of my own child in my arms. If not, then I will be sad, but I will go on.
I write this post as a way to honor all of the mothers out there who have experienced the sorrow of losing a child. People like Wendy, and Heather, and Beth, and millions of other women out there.
Please donate to the March of Dimes. They are saving the lives of babies and the hearts of mothers every day.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
The beautiful and witty Lauren tagged me in a fun photo game. Here are the rules:
Take a picture of yourself right now.
No primping or preparing.
Just snap a picture.
Load the picture onto your blog.
Tag some people to play along.
I'm at work on a break catching up on some of my favorite blogs right now. The only camera I have is my camera phone (which is only like 1.2 megapixels or something).
I don't like photos of myself, but here I am in my office at work for all the world (or the few wonderful people who read my blog) to see:
Have fun and no cheating!
Monday, April 13, 2009
In remembrance of little Maddie, I have changed the color of some of my text to purple (I was trying to change the background color to purple, but since I'm not very good at this whole web design thing, I gave up because I don't know how).
I lost my niece, Alexis Leigh Fromme, in 2003. She was born 16 weeks premature. Alexis lived for 3 days. My sister, Wendy Fromme, and I have chosen to honor Alexis and other prematurely born babies (like Maddie) by walking for the March of Dimes every year.
Please take a moment and donate to the March of Dimes by clicking the link on the right-hand side of my blog. It only takes a moment. I know that economy is bad and times are tough all around, but even if you can only donate $1, every dollar helps.
Do this so families like the Spohrs and the Frommes don't have to know the pain of losing a child.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Springtime and Easter go hand-in-hand. Last year around this time I took my nephew to the zoo (as I do several times a year). The zoo had planted hundreds of daffodils. The blooms were so beautiful! However, I was disheartened to see people picking the blooms. I was shocked that people just assumed that they could pick the flowers. I heard some of the zoo staff off to the side talking about how many hours the groundskeeping staff had spent planning the gardens and planting the bulbs. I haven't been to the zoo yet this spring, but if they chose to plant the daffodils again this year, I hope that installed signs that tell the guests not to pick the flowers. It is really sad that this would even be necessary, but people aren't teaching their children respect for anything anymore.
On behalf of all gardeners out there, I implore you, please don't pick the flowers! The flowers are there for everyone to enjoy, but if you pick the blooms, then no one can enjoy them.
Below are some photos of the daffodil gardens at the Louisville Zoo.
Happy Easter and blessings to all!
Thursday, April 02, 2009
The photos below were taken north of Flagstaff and south of Page. The photos of the canyons were taken from Antelope Pass just south of Page. If you ever have the time, I highly recommend a scenic drive through Arizona. It isn't something you will soon forget.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
More Arizona photos to come soon!
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